Honestly, my heart melted today when Denne was having a random sulk moment. He crawled onto bed from his computer, rested his head on my lap, curled up and snuggled. After a while he said that he wanted me to stay. Being the retard I am, I thought he meant "stay together", so I replied, "Of course, I'm gonna stay you tard," and kissed him.
"I mean, stay the night with me. I really want us to live together"
My heart bloody skipped a beat .-. It felt as though it was gonna drop out of my chest and plop onto his face (lol that went a bit far didn't it). I honestly felt so happy then. I always thought I was the only one that really wanted things like that (probably because I'm too scared to get ahead of myself, thinking that he wants it too). Moments like this makes me really want to try even harder for him. To work through my problems and the differences that we have as a couple.
Well... I'm 4 foot 11 - 11.5 inches. I'm not even bloody 5 foot. Kinda depressing LOL.
Well, my bf is like 5ft10. So a good 26 cms taller than me. I find it sexy <.> but sometimes this shit happens .-.
I become a bloody chin rest. Fuck you Bubba. I love you, but fuck you ._.
(jks)
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About his nickname.
I really love the pet name, Bubby or Bubbi, because like
Husband -> Hubby
Boyfriend -> Bubby
Yeah you should get the jist. But I didn't wanna call Denne that because that was what I called my ex for a really long time... and I felt bad if I called Denne that because of my retarded reasons (honestly... don't even know the reason myself). So Bubba just came out. Its growing on me, but sometimes it feels as though I'm saying "dad" in chinese... which creeps the fuck out of me. I don't think Denne realises (even though he's chinese lol).
Yay. Another mini rant to show you how much of an asshole I am deep down =D
There is nothing that I really hate more than people who change their plans AFTER you've prepared every single fucking thing. Not to mention when they cancel plans AFTER THEYRE FUCKING LATE. How bloody inconsiderate can you be ffs.
I feel like the asshole in this situation though. A little somebody who is dear to me felt like shit. They be swearing all day and being out right pissed off. That someone told me that they wanted to drop by AFTER WORK. MIND YOU AFTER FUCKING WORK. Because they felt like shit, and that person is dear to me, I asked them if they just wanted a shower at my place. They said yes. So, Instead of studying for my exam (which i am completely fucked for), I spent 2 hours cleaning my bathroom, getting things ready so that that person could have a nice relaxing shower or bath (whichever they prefered). I got food up and ready and the bathroom all nice and warm. I got out some lingerie and dressed myself up. I sit there waiting for half a mother fucking hour. Then I find out they went home. They fucking went home to watch game of thrones and did not give a shit in the world to tell me that "I'm gonna drop by home first". 2 Hours fucking late. Thanx
I feel like an asshole in this situation because that person was annoyed about work. I don't even fucking know anymore.
Back to shitting myself about the exam and being overly stressed all over again.
Ps. Sometimes you drive me so insane that I want to kick you up the dick with all my might.
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I don't know how, but this picture came up when I was searching for angry anime images... *dies*
I saw this video from one of my loved youtubers... and it just got me going through some memories. I guess I feel as though that I should just shove it out there.
112.What Is A "Man" - ThisIsACommentary
Yeah,I'm bi-sexual. I think that men are attractive and I think that women are bloody beautiful. My heart races when I see a hot chick on the streets as I would for a hot guy. I check girls out as much as any guy would and I honestly don't give a shit whether you're the same as me or not. Buuuuuuuuuuutt, people seem to have this thing where they like to either love that you're bi (not in a good way mind you) or hate it. I rather they not give a shit honestly. Because how the fuck do I suddenly become a "bad person" after I tell you that I'm bi?
Story time: There was this guy I met at uni. He followed me around and tried to get to know me after approaching me in a lecture. We went to out next lecture and there was a question about ethics. It so happens that the question was, "what is your view on homosexuality?" The dude turned around and asked how I felt about it. I told him, "I saw nothing wrong in it. They are humans who happen to be attracted to the same sex. I guess that and the fact that I'm Bi, I don't really care." Apparently, its wrong because this dude from a book says it is.
I'm lazy to type atm, but this picture basically sums everything up.
I know that this isn't anywhere near as bad as what its like being apart of the GLBTT when you're a guy. Nevertheless, its shitty. People just need to learn to fucking love and stop giving people shit for having a different sexual orientation. Peace
Lately I've been re-reading his old blog posts for comfort. Its like drowning myself in a book, escaping relativity to pretend that everything is what it used to be. To escape back to the times where there were no problems. To escape to the time where I was showered with affection. Lol I'm so shit (Y)
Anywho, a few rnd songs that I found recently. The memories ;_;
Better man - Stevie Hoang
Writer's block - Nasri
Clock Stops - August Rigo
After the rain - August Rigo
Broken love - August Rigo
Jesus, August had so many depressing songs .-.
Before Dawn- August Rigo
Wait for you - Elliott Yamin
IF A NERD AND A CUP CAKE HAD A BABY, IT WOULD BE JUST LIKE MY BABY (lol)
The weirdest song I've ever heard. Gotta admit, its enjoyable.
