Those moments that just blows your mind o-o.
Ok DISCLAIMER:
1. I don't stalk my ex, ew
2. His girlfriend is a friend I've known for years, so I have her on facebook, instagram and what not
3. No feelings have been hurting during the process of these events
Straight to the point. I've seen a few photos that just made me go "o-o". Just, no comment, no reaction, just o-o. I was on instagram a few days ago and I saw a photo of his girlfriend with a ring saying things like "its official" and all. Was about to say "CONGRATS~!" like I do whenever I see a happy couple. But the thing is, I saw that he bought the same ring for her as the ring that he gave me for some occasion (forgot, horrible memory). A ring from the beautiful Piercing Planet that I introduced him to. Awkward moment o-o, couldn't think of anything other than "Thats the same one o-o", so didn't post anything. Then today, on facebook after school, saw on my news feed that she was wearing the couple scarf I gave him for Christmas that I spent with him in 2011. Just weird wtf moments o-o, so so so so weird. LOL
12:57 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
Henrii came into school to give Anne some money for lunch, and Lan happened to be with him. Henrii was all casual with hoody and all whileLan had somewhat formal clothing on. Our little circle of girls were talking about guys, liking tall guys, classy guys, laadidah. Talking about our boyfriends and spazzing the shit out of ourselves, then Anne went ape shit, screamed and jumped up and jumped onto Henrii. Made me have a massive as smile, cause damn it was cute! XD Made me wish Papabwear came in with BabyBwear ><
Anywho, I then noticed Lan was there and I was like o-o ahh its Lan, smiled to them and turned to Claudette. She gave me a "what the fuck" and a "Are you ok" look. She instantly smiled and shat herself laughing when our eyes met. She knew! Then gave me the "Go bitch go!" or "I'm proud of you bitch!" look. Hahas I just wanted to jump on her like usual, but didn't want to have any chances of him thinking that I'm trying something lol.
That joyous moment when you encounter your ex, and you don't feel jack shit! XD
Was all happy and jumpy all day after that. kept thinking
"I WANNA SEE DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
"WHERES PAPABWEAR!!"
"DENDEN DENDEN DENDEN DENDEN DENDEN DENDEN"
Friends in last period asked me why I was so happy and hyper, I said "I miss DenneBwear =3" My walking ball of mother fucking happiness. fajdhgkdjfhgkajhgkaljdfhgjlrwhgtureg LOL Going shopping with him tonight!
Also, turns out we are planning to go out this Saturday. Denne&Me, Henrii&Anne, Michael, Maria, Jennifer and (planning to invite) Peter. Might get some chemistry working ;)
12:09 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
A simple and brief explanation of Anxiety... Le Bitch
8:50 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
The baggage that I've been left with from the last still hurts. The anxiety, fears, insecurities, uneasiness have followed me and its refusing to leave. All that can really be done is endure endure and endure, in hope that one day it will fade away. The deeper I get, the more the baggage starts to weigh, the more fear that builds up and the more anxiety takes a toll on me. The reason behind my fear for falling is that this apparent never ending free fall, may have a crash landing just like before.
There is however, a difference between the last fall and this fall. What is it you ask? Its the fact that this fall will kill me unlike the last. I will not be able to recover from this fall like I could from the last. I'm not saying that the thing I'm falling for is the same as the last.. no. No one really understands anxiety, and no one really cared enough to learn.
3:57 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
The last few days, things have been amazing. Today is a happy and terrifying day all at once. Today is the start of term 3, which will be jam packed with assessments, exams, extended experimental investigation reports, QCS, and not to mention, rarely ever getting to see my boyfriend ... This is definitely going to be a crazy term that would push me to my breaking point. With no way out, things just get a tad bit daunting... just a bit...
Anywho, on the bright side of today. ITS OUR 1 MONTH =3 Denne things is been a long time, I don't know what makes him think that oh well. I have to admit, the last month has gone past so damn fast.
Sunday was an amazing day =3 Although I promised myself that I would never let myself fall so hard for someone again, its hard not to. The more time I spend with him, the more I just get attached to him. He just makes me feel so love with the simplest things he does. The way he treats me, the way he talks to me and the way he smiles at every little thing I do.
Friday night we went to Hieu's place, played poker as I drank a bit. That night we decided to go beach. Went home at 11pm, and ate food. Denne went to sleep earlier because he loss sleep from being there for his kitty the night before. I eventually fell asleep, then woke up at 5 to a horrible stomach ache. Seems as if the fish I ate late on firday night was off. Woke up again at 8 and stomach ache was still hurting. Was thinking of cancelling beach, but I decided to go to Denne's house anyways. Before arriving at his place, we had to drop by shops to grab things for Mummy. Went over to his place and his house was cold as hell, so I changed into one of his white long sleeve shirts =3 That sure put a giant smile on his face *ahem*.
Drank medicine and stayed in bed whilst Denne heads off again to get what we forgot for his mum. Fell asleep due to lack of hours, and woke up to Denne's ass walking around his house with only his briefs on. Pretty common sighting, a wild Denne in its natural habitat .-. Can't help but facepalm every single time though LOL. Denne came in and sat there playing games as I was fixing my contacts since they became dry from sleeping with them in. Awkward thing is... Hieu suddently dropped by. What made it even more awkward is that I was only my my boxers since my skinny jeans were abit tight, and baka Denne had only had his briefs on. Denne held the door as I quickly shoved my jeans back on and opened the door. I was thinking, "Denne you knob... WHAT ABOUT YOUR PANTS... STOP MAKING THE SITUATION SEEM SO SUSS" hahas <3 Love him so much =3
We then went to the beach, then time zone. Bitch, I destroyed you in tekken =3 <3
Amazing day! Fell asleep in the car in his lap. Had dreams of him kissing my on the cheek and ear twice or so. I event dream of him when hes right next to me LOL. <3 So damn happy nowa days. =3
After going home, he slowly fell asleep. The poor thing got knocked out at around 11.55pm, but somehow at EXACTLY 12pm he woke up and mumbled
"Hey kitty, Happy 1 month. Woke up just im time to say that"
I died abit inside ... sgjkhsdfgkljhsdfkjgh
He makes me so fucking happy ^~^
Hes too full ^ LOL
12:28 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
He thinks I'm not giving him a chance, yet I'm risking everything for him. I had no shortage of guys liking me, but I wasn't interested. 8 before him, all had there own uniqueness which makes them likeable, yet it didn't matter because I wasn't willing to risk further damaged to my heart which was already broken. I wasn't willing to go into a relationship after being left the way I was. Yet I still let him into my life. Yet I still try with whatever I have left towards the relationship. But if that isn't giving a chance, then why am I sill here? Why do I bother if it apparently isn't enough? What part can I play in his life if I'm too broken to give him more? Well I guess it's time to bring back the mask. Covering my sorrows so I can go another day smiling.
8:37 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
Sometimes things just become unbearable. I don't understand how I become the villain in situations where I've had pain inflicted on me. I've been cast the roll of the antagonist even when I was not the inflictor. Life takes interesting turns. These few have taught me to blame myself for everything that happens. "Without me, none of this would have had the chance to happen to being with."
It may just be another cowardly attempt in avoiding further pains. There is only so much a heart and withstand.
8:05 AM
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LienhhlovessyhuuXx
