I know its weird, but when you actually look at it... they are damn fucking cute >///<
The pups are god damn cute... LOOK AT THOSE EYEEESS!!!! THOSE EEEEEEYYEEEEESSSSSS!!! DFKHLDFKHGDLFKGH
Fucking fluff balls.
*dies*
Yeahh.... I love bats. I don't tell many people, but I love bats .-. Its ok littles guys, even though you make me shit my pants when you randomly make sounds or fly off in the middle of the night, I forgive you... You're too adorable to me mad at Q^Q. There should be more bats in Vietnam! These guys eat around the same amount, if not more of their total body weight in insects... approx 1000 mosquitoes per night.
ONE THOUSAND PER BAT PER NIGHT
Fuck you mossys =D
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Friday, December 27, 2013
The Christmas Post (Finally lol)
Well, its been 3 days since Christmas. I've been meaning to blog about what happened, but I guess things came up that made me want dish out instead. By the time I finished, it was late and I wanted to smash my head on the table and sleep LOL.
Just downloaded the anime "Free!". Apparently it is a yaoi so I am REALLLY looking forward to it. Saw some fhgsdfhgdsfjgh cute anime guy abs and I kinda had a ttttiiiiiiiiiinnnyyyy fangirl moment... Shhhh Denne doesn't need to know ;) LOL
Well lets see if I can remember everything. Spent the day at work. Did a 8 hour shift starting from 8 am. Though I was completely exhausted, I was happy. I was able to convince my mum to let me stay overnight at Leon's party. Worked extra hard that day, made a regular customer from an adoring old couple. I greeted them good morning and asked how I could start off their day. I delivered their raisin toast with coffee and english tea along with a few extra cookies since I remembered how much the old lady enjoyed them the first time she came. I couldn't be sexist so I made sure that I offered the man the variety of daily newspapers we had to offer. After a few hours after their departure... well what do you know? They both came back for lunch and made sure to mention that they well see us again soon. That made me happy as hell xD
Anywho, afterwards, 2dn, Denne and I went to a restaurant in Darra. The total came to about $250? I was a pretty good dinner I'd say. We all stuffed ourselves to the max. Afterwards we left for Leon's house. Waited a while until everyone was there and we started to gather to open our secret santa presents. Honestly, this group is full of such generous people. The minimum present price was $40, but many exceeded $100, even $130. It's amazing the things people got. I think the most ecstatic person would be Vinh (Flynn), who got some fucking beast as basketball shoes. He was so excited that everyone got fired up with him. It was amazing opening the presents. The anticipation made everything so much better.
Afterwards we played drinking games. I'd say that, by fat, 4 Kings is the most fun drinking game I have every played. It was HILARIOUS when KT flipped a Jack and made a rule that everyone that doesn't speak Vietnamese would have to drink. It's funny to see how much everyone struggled to speak Vietnamese. Since a lot of people either didn't know the game, or didn't completely remember the rules, Katie (Hoc's cousin from vietnam) and I were shitting ourselves laughing at the way TD and others were using literate translations, broken Viet and gestures to try and explain everything. There were times were they would rage quit and just shout it out in english, followed with a FFS and then a scull of the drink. It's like, "Fuck I GIVE UP!! *Drinks*"
After 4 Kings, we played another drinking game... I have no idea how the fuck you spell it. I'll ask Denne tomorrow lol. The moment when Kevin L was able to give 6 drinks out to someone, fuck he was so hyped. He was so excited to fuck someone up that it was adorable.
Honestly, that night was a taad bit weird for me. I'm not very open to people nowadays, although I am still straight forward. After a big of drinks though I was an open book. I kinda reverted to who I used to be ish. Looking after people, cooking for people, more willing to talk to people I don't really no rather than keeping to myself more and just going along with what they are saying. Had a chill sesh with TD, Vinh, Kevin and Alex outside from 2 am in the morning til about 5. It was real fun.
Vinh and Kevin got so much more talkative when they drank, and from then on, I felt so much more accepted by them. Iunno hey, I'm kinda used to being fucked up and being fucked over. After everything, I honestly am scared of being rejected by people for who I am. I've finally accepted me for who I am after a lot of soul searching. I thought that since I came to terms with who I am, my Friends would too. But apparently that wasn't true
But as Alex said, "well, they aren't really friends now are they"
Something so simple just hit me in the face
"Yeah you're right"
Guess it's not something I would be jdfhgkjadfhg over. Fuck, it's 3 am and my blog doesn't fucking makes sense... i think. Well, I'll end it here.
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Thursday, December 26, 2013
Guitar, Just Feel Like Sharing =)
I started listening to some classics again and I came across some people who used to be my inspirations when it comes to guitar and music... honestly, right now I am so tempted to just take back Sabichi from Denne's brother, John, and start all over again. Honestly, I feel as though I've been an asshole to Sabichi... I haven't played him for the longest time. Not to mention during grade 11 and 12, I left him in the corner to collect dust, along with a family of spiders. I really want to start playing again, miss my guitar like crazy... DW BABY!!! MUMMY IS COMING TO GET YOU!! (note... sabichi is the name of my guitar lol. Yes... I named my guiar LOL)
I'll try to minimize the amount of videos I post... So here is a song that is more modern, something that you guys can relate to.
Skrillex - Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites.
I didn't think that Dubstep could even have an acoustic version.. LOL
Now, for some CLASSIC and CLASSIC ROCK YEEEAAAAHH!!!
Pachelhel - Canon
The amount of skills and techniques used in this song is INSANE! Finger tapping in the beginning (can not stress how hard it is to play the higher notes at such speed with this style of play), pulls on/offs, finger styling and picking, along with muting/silencing, strumming jcvhlkjxfghjklxhfg.
Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
Led Zeppelin - Stairway To Heaven
ANIME THEME SONGGSS!! A youtuber by the name of Lonlonjp has always been the person that inspired me the most with guitar... and this is why,
Naruto - Sadness and Sorrow
Naruto - Bluebird
Final Fantasy X - To Zanarkand
Last one!! This man has a fucking unique way of playing the guitar I swear... It's amazing. I met him busking once... best $5 I have EVER SPENT... if only I had more money, shiet.
Here is OWEN CAMPBELL!
Owen Campbell - Sunshine Road
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Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Different Eras
I swear, this man is fucking AMAZING!
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It really feels as though my mum lives in a completely different era. I understand that my parents and grandparents are from completely different times and countries, but it feels as though they have no ability to adapt what so ever. It must of been hard for porky since he was so young when our family moved to Australia that it was practically like he was born here. The contradicting values and aspects of life must have been a bitch the deal with.
Why am I blogging about this? Well, Denne just left my house, and it is nearly 12 pm. I understand that it is late, but she gave me a massive talk. I can understand that she wouldn't be happy about it, but the things that she said in the talk is what really infuriated me. She proceeded to ask me stupid questions like, "Do you really think you will marry him", and "what are you? Husband and Wife?"
I understand that it was much more conservative at Vietnam back in the days, but the thing is... ITS NOT VIETNAM. Common, I still keep my values ffs. I ain't no slut, I ain't no druggie, I ain't no addict, I ain't no dirtying cheating son of a bitch. I'm loyal as fuck and it doesn't even matter. She just sees as though dating at my age is just fun and games, when I take relationships more serious than most people I know. Want a loyal spouse? Fuck I wouldn't cheat on you even if you were the ugliest shit on earth. But apparently, that doesn't really matter.
I am here in Australia, 17 and only had 2 boyfriends. The first lasted 3 years, and the current is going on to 7 months. YET.... YET, my mum ALWAYS thinks its a game... Fuck and in Vietnam, my cousin who is only a week younger than me had dated at least 8 guys before she even started grade 10. Like.. Shiet... and she thinks I'm a POS.... fuck that logic.
Anywho, I honestly hate it when she kept asking if I think I am going to marry him. I'm not gonna be a naive teenager that is like, "OF COURSE I'LL MARRY HIM". I don't know whats gonna happen in the future. I'd love to one day be happily married to him one day, not to mention have mini Denne and Kittys running around. That'd be amazing, but nothing but death is 100% sure. I honestly just ignored her question because I know what she could get out of it. She's kinda the, "I told you so" person. So yeah. Well, there is more I can say with this topic, but after all that got off my chest, I feel completely happy again. Rather blog about yesterday then about this useless thing lol.
I no longer care about the, "I'll prove you wrong" thing, if it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, then i obviously would be sad as shit, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be.
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Monday, December 23, 2013
My Room Is Different + We Argue More Often
"I don't want a lot for Chrismas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree.
I just want you for my own
More than you can ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh, All I want for Christmas is you."
I guess today I decided to do two blogs in one since I gotten kinda lazy and I'm a TAD bit sleepy.
My room has had quite a dramatic change. After living like a bum for a period of time, I got my ass up and cleaned the SHIT out of it =). With Denne around, I took the chance to move my furniture around to what I've been having in mind for a good few months now. Denne seemed to be pretty content with the change since he can enjoy some anime action in a super comfortable way now LOL. Well, at least that is what I interpreted his expressions to be. First photo is the view from my bed. As you can see, my desk is now fully set up right next to my bed lol. Second photo is the view from my door. Don't mind the quality though .-.
There is a few things I'd like the mention, however they are too short to fit into a paragraph. Hence, I'll just note them in dot points! xD :
Denne and I have been spending more time together nowadays. Its good that despite this fact, he is still spending time with his friends. All in all, Kitty is happy.
Due to the budget I am running on in order to make money to spend in Vietnam, I couldn't collect enough money to make Denne one of those female anime santa outfits, so I got him a handful of costumes. They arrived HEAPS earlier than I had thought it would and Denne seemed more than pleased with that. If you know what I mean.
Denne asked me to give him a hair cut after I fixed his hair from the last time he had it cut. Honestly.. the faggot didn't really ask, he pestered and bribed me into doing it. I eventually gave in and did it... Once he makes up his mind, there's nothing that will stop him I guess. Well, it took a while. Heaps of hair... HEAPS... EVERYTWHERE. In the end, he said it was good. I don't know if he actually means it if he is trying to be nice, but oh well. I guess I gotta believe his ass =)
Denne is off work now for the holidays. We found out that he was going to get a $200 gift for christmas. Pretty fucking dope boss if you ask me.
Denne snores loud ,-.
You also dribble a lot LOL!
Denne and I have been arguing more than we used to. He is starting to show his less attentive, dopey, spacey and joking side whilst I start to show more of my broken, mentally unstable and hot tempered side. Those things don't really mix well, as you can tell. Although these traits are a horrible combo, I can honestly say we are arguing less than I anticipated I wouldn't even call them fights as I usually would. I get mad at him, we says sorry when he knows that he has fault, then I apologies when I calm down a few minutes later. We talk about it, sort things out, make adjustments and hear each others' opinions and thoughts on the topic. We hear each other out without in order to get each understand from both POVs, and compromise so that we can maybe handle it better next time. A number of the fights few as though it is just a learning process in which we learn about our significant other on an even deeper level than before.
Though I say this, we often argue about money. We spend pretty much every single day together, that, and we are also tight on money since the Vietnam trip does not come cheap, so I can understand where it is coming from. Denne tends to spend very impulsively, so things come up here and there. Plus, its Christmas and New Year soon, so you can see why things tend to come up.
I've been pretty distressed lately with the number of arguments and disagreements we have been having lately. Though it is nowhere near as much as what I have experienced, It still terrifies me. Although what happens after the argument and how the issue is solved is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT, I still can not help but be scared. I guess I'm just scared of the same things happening again, scared of being broken even more. Being distressed about it doesn't really help the situation since it puts me even more on the edge, making me easier to blow off. I'm grateful though, it seems as though Denne might have picked up on my distress as he has been slightly more gentle to me. Its crazy that he can make me feel so at ease, so fast after I snap at him. Its amazing how understanding he can be.
No matter how many times I fall apart, no matter what the reason, he comes and picks me up. He picks up the pieces and fit them back together before he begins to solve the problem.
"Didn't I tell you from the beginning? No matter how many times you fall apart, I'll be there to help you pick up the pieces one by one."
I guess someone as fucked over and fucked up as me needs someone as kind as him. Although he is a complete derp face, he is MY derpface ^~^ Something that I treasure more than anything. Honestly, within the mist I've been in since I started dating Denne (mainly school, fake friends and familly complications here and there), I've never been happier. Welp, back to working hard and earning more money so that we can have a MOTHER FUCKING MAGICAL VACATION!!! YOOOOOOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSHHH!!!!
がんばって~!!
Ganbatte~!!
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Friday, December 13, 2013
What I Think Is The Key To A Relationship
People these days take on relationships in such a naive and childish way compared to the generations before us. It is more of a fairy tale than reality to most, hence why it is possible for people to think that being together for a few months is a "long time". Everytime some arguement springs up, we tend to question ourselves if we are "with the right person". It is as though our significant other is souly responsible for our happiness, and once that honeymoon phase high is no longer present due to disagreements and the clashing of personalities, we feel as though it is wrong. The desire for the high that was once present in the relationship eventually leads to ... yeah.
Its just that people do not understand that every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; youfall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls,want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."
Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU. Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, youmay begin to desire that experience with someoneelse. This is when relationships breakdown.
The key to succeeding in a relationship is not
finding the right person;
it's learning to love the person you found.
People blame their partners for their unhappinessand look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship.
It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Why?
Because the key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the Person you found. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work.
Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws of the universe, there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.
Remember this always: You have no power in who walks into your life, however it is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.
Also, don't get me wrong, even though this is the theory I go by, it is not always easy to follow it. Everyone is only human, we make mistakes and we contradict ourselves. But that is how we learn and grow as a person.
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Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Welcome To Another Place I Call Home
Amazingly, I'm seriously getting into EDM. That may be because it actually has some legitimate and meaningful lyrics that I can relate to, whilst fucking pumping it with a good beat. Its honestly better than dubstep in my opinion, since dubstep is just... beat and weird sounds mashed together...
"I could feel it, I could feel it, I could feel it
In the air around me
and I can see it, I can see it, I can see it
Cause it all surrounds me
You got my love down
Love down baby
Got my love down
All I need is your love love love"
Well, how that I'm done with the music, now to blog =). I've been busy as hell lately. Haven't blogged in a bit and it feels a tad bit weird imo. Well, the reason why I haven't blogged much because I've been planning things out for Vietnam. I feel so fucking appreciative towards my mum. It seems as though my High School graduation dream is about to be accomplished. People asked if I was going schoolies, I answered that I wanted to go on holidays with Denne instead. Well, EVERYTHING IS PLANNED OUT!!!
Mum, Quang and I are going to Viet Nam on the 26th of January 2014... and Denne is also gonna join! I'm so excited. There is so much I want to show Denne, there is so much I want Denne to experience. I can't wait to show Denne why I love Vietnam. Rather than the side of Vietnam people don't like and rather avoid, I want to show him the part that made me fall in love with the country.
Denne, this the place where we will live for three weeks.
Nga bay around about of Provence 10
I really can't wait to go on holidays with you Denne. I have a feeling that it is going to be AMAZING!!
Well, the past week or so, I've been working many hours. I'm planning to save up 1.1k AUD for spending money in Vietnam. I want to save up as much as possible, although we are meant to save up together. Denne is already having to spend 1k on the tickets and then money on getting his passport and all done up again. I feel as though its only fair on me that I help out too. We were planning to save 2-3k together, however after a bit of calculations, it seems as though we only need 1.1k. We figured that 1 million VND per day should be about enough for a large majority of the days. If we don't use all 1 million dong, we would just save it for the next day. With this, we don't really need to depend on my mum or Denne's mum as much with this trip.
Welp, EXCITED AS SHIT!!!! Worked 4 days a week last week. From here on, its 3 days per week. Yay =3 It's really tiring, but its way worth it.
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Sunday, December 8, 2013
Its A Snorlax!!
It's 10.20 atm and Denne is fast asleep... I was on ebay trying to fix things up. How did I know the faggot was sleeping?? Well, lets say he fucking snores so damn load. Its hard to not notice. He is such a deep sleeper, jesus fuck. I moved his arms, laid on his shoulder and wrapped his arm around me. Its amazing he did wake up .-. As a matter of fact, he is snoring even loader... you see why I call him a snorlax?? I honestly kinda enjoy being a creep... I'm watching him sleep while listening to his heart beat... whilst trying to ignore the ... yeah. Maybe one day Denne might break his own eardrums in his sleep oO
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Saturday, November 30, 2013
When People Reveal A Side of Them You Didn't Expect
When people reveal a part of then that you didn't expect, it's like "holly shit"
Yesterday and today have been full of misunderstandings of our plans. Because of that, we're left just sitting around doing nothig, and falling asleep and wasting the limited time we have on this stupid world. It has caused frustrations and annoyance between the both of us. That isn't really that surprising though. What surprised me was what he said.
Well long story short, after a debate about going or not and what was and wasn't said, we reached the point where Denne pointed out that we needed a tackle box and that the only way we can get one is if Kevin came along. I honestly love kevin's company because he is such a funny dude to be around, however I don't want it to be because of that. I said to Denne that I didn't want to invite kevin just because he has a tackle boxbecause that is basically using him. Well, what Denne said here really shocked me.
"Even if it's so, he's just going to give it to use in good will anyway"
I made a point that it sounded as though Denne was fine with taking advantage of that kevin's just because he will give it to us anyways.
He replied, "well that is the only way we can go fishing, unless you have something else you can suggest" (along the lines of that, however the second half of the sentence was a lot more harsh)
From there I just didn't reply and went to spend some time along. I can honestly say that I've been expecting hings to kinda turn out like this... exactly like how it did with Lan lol.
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An Ant's Revenge...
Welp, long story short, I got fucked up by a fucking ant... What happened was, I was eatching Denne and Kevin spare at the back of Kevin's house. I sat my ass down on the ground and pushed my legs from a semi squat position into one where my knees are together and are at a 90 degree angle in front of me. While sliding my feet, I kinda rolled a little ant's ass... and its ass kinda got flattened. The little guy was trying to crawl away when out of the blue, one of his little friend started dashing towards me... next thing I know, it went up my shorts and bit me in the ass...
I'm not gonna lie, that fucking hurt like a bitch, and it continued to sting for quite a while... it stung so bad and I wanted to destroy the little thing skfigosbf. Ant 1, Kitty 0
Well that sucks.
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Thursday, November 28, 2013
Fuck Immature People
Welp, the title says it all. Checked my facebook just then, and damn its annoying when people think they are up there and put shit on other people. If you meet misfortune, fuck whatever then, good fucking luck. I ain't giving a shit no more =) I give up on humanity.
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Wednesday, November 27, 2013
You're Hurting Her Again
Honestly, I think I give too many shits about too many people that I shouldn't give shits about. Hey Denne, I think you get annoyed at me or question me a lot about how I feel towards things, I know. It's funny that, although people fuck me over and stab me on the back, I still hope that they're ok. Although there might be dark kitty at the back of my head being "normal" and wishing for those "Bad" people to rot in hell and bump into misfortune at every turn they take, light kitty usually always overrides those thoughts within minutes. I just want people to be happy, however, it seems as though that is something that is too hard to ask for. Even people like "gods" and "Saints" can't grant something that can be so simple. Admitingly at times I love that karma reflects the shit that people poop out back to their face, it's just that I can't stop hoping for people to be happy.
Yeah, Huy, if you're reading this, fuck your opinions, laugh all you fucking want but that is me and I'm gonna fucking live this way. Fucking call me stupid and moronic if that tickles your belly, I rather be a fucking moron than be a complete asshole that this fucked up world is full of, thank you very much.
Anywho, I intended this post to be in regards to a blog I just read. It seems as though her blog went from;
"I'm so happy"
"He's changed for the better"
"No regret"
"He is my world"
to something like;
"He hasn't changed"
"He changed back"
"I'm scared"
"I cry"
and various other things
I shouldn't even be posting something related to them, I went off facebook for a reason... To get away from the shit that happened because people in this world are judgmental as fuck. It's sad that he was like "you look and act like a slut" and give me the "you're a piece of shit" type of treatment although he can't even do something as simple as treating his girl right... It's sad that I've only work "revealing stuff" like.. 3 times maybe? I can only remember the shirt that shows my belly and the shirt with the cut down the side that I had a tank top underneath. Last time I checked, belly cleavage is pretty normal... Also with the talking about coitus, I at least a month ago (since the "chat"), hence I don't know how that is a problem.
Anywho, although I shouldn't give a shit, it kinda broke my heart a bit to read her blog. Fuck it so sad that its like
"ARRRUUUGGHHH wtf are you going to the people around you?!?!?! Especially her!"
The people who are obviously loyal to you and those who won't give up on you... you're treating them like shit. And the people who doesn't really matter as much in your life, you treat them fucking wonderfully. I don't get it. People you party with you are so kind to them, but you snap at your girl so casually, then act as though you did nothing what so ever. You tell me to get my shit together? What about you? My shit does not directly effect the people that I love anywhere near yours. People think I'm a slut? Fuck them, they can suck a
my my e-penis. I've only fucked my boyfriends, one I was with for 3 years, and the other is the one I'm currently with that I have been dating for nearly 6 months. I have never cheated and have always devoted myself and my loyalty towards my partners. What about you? How many girls have you slept with? How many girls have you kissed? How many people have you cheated on and cheated with? Have you stayed loyal to every person you dated? If you still call me a slut after all that, then I'm sorry, but you need to look in the dictionary and widen your vocabulary.
Anywho, the way you are acting and have been acting has been hurting not only your girl, but also your parents and the people who are true to you. If you want to continue pushing people away and stabbing the people who love you whole heartedly in the fucking chest, keep doing it. But don't wonder why people keep fucking you over and keep leaving you. You have already lost someone in grade 10, who was so damn dear to you in the past because of it, and now you're risking your current girlfriend too. If you keep hurting her like you have been, shes not gonna stay.
But fuck I don't know why I even bother. I bet the second you see this, you aren't gonna even give a shit. You're gonna be the stubborn person you are and continue saying shit about me. Well whatever, do what you'd like. I'm content with my life where I treasure the little friends I have, where I love my boyfriend and devote myself and my loyalty towards him and where I'm always helping my family out.
Also, towards the girl, I hope you can stop crying, I hope that you can stop breaking down and live in fear of what has happened to you in the past and what can happen in the future. I really hope that you can truly be happy rather than pretending nothing happened in order to make things normal again. I hope you can take off that mask that you're wearing. I wish you good luck in the future.
This song came into my head when I read your blog.
Last chance - Kaskade
Please don't break me
Please don't let me fall
Please don't break me and leave me with nothing at all
Cause this was my one last chance to breathe
This is my one last chance to breathe [x2]
This is my one last chance, my one last chance to breathe
Please don't break me and leave me with nothing at all
Cause this is my one last chance to breathe
This is my one last chance to breathe [x2]
This is my one last chance, my one last chance to breathe
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Sunday, November 24, 2013
Hating Is Such a Waste of My Limited Time.
Hey Hun, do you remember that song that I kept humming over and over again? The one that I was completely obsessed with (I think I still am lol)? Yeaaaahhh..
I FOUND A COVER FROM DAVID SO A PAUL KIM!!!!! ERMAHGERD
As you know, David So and Paul Kim are two of my favourite independent artists. Its like EEERRRHHHHHHHHHH *fan girls*
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I honestly don't see the point in hating and creating dramas. I see it as such a waste of time. People are always so judgmental that is ugggh. With me, yeah I judge people, I'm not perfect. HOWEVER, I don't act on my judgments. I don't hate people for their flaws and I don't be an asshole towards them for it. The thing is, because I see that I am as retarded as anyone out there and that I am in no way perfect. I see that I have flaws and I accept my flaws when pointed out by another person. I try and fix things that aren't appropriate as long as the person delivering it is not a complete asshole.
I really love my grandma, she is an amazing person. Living with her for so much of my childhood really taught me a lot. One of the most important things that she taught me, the thing that really defines me is the fact I can't really hate people. Grandma made me understand that everyone is fucked up, no one is fucking perfect. I tend to see peoples flaws very fast, however, I don't judge them on it.
"Good people can do bad things, however, it doesn't make them a bad person"
I tend to judge them on what their positive attributes. Lets say for example, someone is two-faced, cocky, however they can be very supportive towards friends,they are lively and encouraging. What I see of them in my eyes would be, "he/she is a nice, lively person who loves and supports their friends whole-heartedly."
Denne thinks I'm a fucking retard for this I know, but that was just how I was raised. Why is it that I'm like this though? Its because I see that people are flawed as fuck, and that I am flawed as fuck too. Also, I believe in karma. I know I'm not perfect and that I have flaws, I wouldn't want people the be dickheads towards me for my flaws and I rather them tell me straight up if they think something isn't right so I can fix it. Because that is how I would like to be treated, I treat people the same way.
Honestly, now that I think about it, that might be why Denne and I get along real well. We both are straight forwards as fuck, and we seem to have a lot of the same values when it comes to this. We know that both of us are retarded ( you know its true Denne <3) and that we aren't perfect,.We don't blame each other for our flaws and fight over it. because our positive shit is more important. Our positive attributes are what made us come to love each ohter after all. Why ruin something like love with such petty and stupid flaws. It's not like hes a violent, abusive, disloyal douchebaggy
We get annoyed at each other here and there, but shit gets solved in a snap.
Example
*Denne does something*
*I snap*
"Hun, I really don't like it when you snap at like that"
".... *silent*... I'm sorry hun, I didn't mean to. Forgive kitty? (tease)"
*Mwuaah*
Now that I see it like that, fuck I am grateful for his smooshy perky ass .-. Thank god there is someone that actually understands me rather than judge me to the days. Yeah, FUCK... I love him to death .-. It's decided, next time I see him, hes gonna get a big fucking hug from a magical pink unihorn (me LOL). Also, hope hes gonna enjoy just laying there and not having to work so hard... if you know what I mean ;)
This blog wondered off topic lol.
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PINK HAIRRRR!!!!
Welcome! Here's a song that I've always been fond of xD
Davidsomusic's cover to Slum Village and John Legend's Remix of Selfish
"I try to contain myself
But I ca't restrain myself
And I can only blame myself
Maybe I need to get some help
Now what do I do
It's so hard to chose
This ones for you, yeah all of you
I'm calling out to all my, you're my ladies
And I can't let you (let you) be with no one but me baby"
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Welp, instead of waiting for someone to dye my hair white or silver blonde, I decided to get a Notics hair dye and do it myself. So first up it was about 2 hours of doing the blonde dye. I dyed it twice, hence the application, process and rinse time all add up to about two hours. The tips were silver blonde, then from that, it went to blonde and a copper brown. I intended to do this because I assumed that the colour difference would give a better ombre look since I only had the one pink colour. Rather than doing the usual pink to black, I wanted a super baby pink to slowly going a tad bit darker, then into a pink/brown and then black. I made the two different pink tones through mixing the dye in conditioner for a lighter and more pastel look. Although I need to fix the blending a bit (perfectionist ftw... fml lol) I was so surprised that it came out the way I wanted it to.
Welp, my Knight, you're gonna be walking around with a little pink haired chick on your arms. Have fun LOL. Also Hun, I think its so freaken adorable that you sometimes push your lips a bit (ie, returning the kiss) when I kiss you while you're still asleep xD You probably don't know that you do that... but well... you do now!
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Saturday, November 23, 2013
Weird and Unexpected Approach
Well, today, Denne and I went to get his hair cut. Some parts were a bit weird afterwards, so I helped him fix things here and there. I honestly think he looks pree fucking sjkghkdfhjgd in his new hair style xD. Whilst we were at the back of Denne's house fixing up his hair, I took the chance to finish cutting my fringe so it doesn't look as retarded anymore. Thinned it here and there, cut the from part shorter by about 10 + cms. Was happy with how it came out.
Afterwards, we went to hand in my form to TimeZone at the city then visited the salon to get some hair dye while I was at it =3. So fucking excited that I'm about to get my hair a cotton candy pastel hair!! I got to dye the part I want pink into a white colour first. Hope it doesn't fuck up my hair too much though. I was planning to go to the place that Denne always gets his hair cut to dye it. Cost me around $62 dollars. Broke my balls... only those two things and it was $62. I'm planning to get my hair bleached at a salon first, THEN dying it pink myself.
Side note: Jesus... Denne is snoring so loud o-o
Straight after going back from the city, we went to Teddy's place for his birthday. I got to say, I LOVE Teddy's grandma. She started the rounds... The lady opened the bottle of Jim Beam, went and poured a shot for EVERYONE in the room. A-fucking-mazing, she deserves a fucking thrown...I didn't intend to drink, but I couldn't say no to her, so I ended up with 4 shots. Afterwards, I went into Teddy's room where there was about 3 guys and one other girl (all my age). Me and Tram stood behind the computer chair watching one of them play League. Since I'm not really a fan of League, I seated myself on the bed and had a little small talk with the people there. Apparently everyone there knew who I was. I was wtf-ing the whole time.
It turns out that one of the guy there was a certain someone's ex. He said that certain someone (lets just make it CS for short) talked about me a lot, and me and her did when we went out. That also made me what the fuck again, since I didn''t know she was talking to her ex that much. The he continued to go on about how he sees whats been happening and stuff about her calling me a slut. Honestly, all I said was,
"its weird that she calls me a slut when I've only slept with 2 people that I dated. One for 3 years and one that I'm currently in now which is lasting nearly half a year."
Side note: Honestly, people throw around the word slut so much these days without even knowing the meaning... Last time I checked, a slut was a female who is disloyal to their significant others. Those who sleep with more than 1 person at a time, those who cheat and those who two time. I have in now way done that, and ... yeah iunno. I don't get it
Well after that, CS's ex started saying stuff about her. What she did to him and how he was cheated on, two timed and everything. I didn't want to stoop down a level and start bitching about her, so I just brushed things off with, "really?" and stuff like that. There was this last statement where he said that it was funny that she called me a slut when she actually did those things herself, made me go "OOKAAAAAAAAAYY" and end the convo there.
I found it weird that he approached me. Maybe there were other motives behind it? Maybe there was something going on to see what I say or what not. But I seriously did not give enough shits to continue it. Didn't want to let something so petty ruin my day again.
Afterwards, Denne, Leon, Teddy, Kevin, some other people and I played Tekken. It was funny that every time I kill Leon he was like "fdslkghkhgaihg". Honestly think he has a pretty cute personality.
Lots of things happened, but I was pleased with myself that I didn't stick to Dennes side the whole time. I was 100% comfortable with giving him space to hang with his friends. I'd say that less than 40% of the party was spent with him.
Anywho, off to mabinogi!!!!
I FINALLY REACHED CHAMPION ARCHER!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!!! SO FUCKING SLKGHLDKGHLKDFHGLDKSFGHLKSDFGHLKDFHG!!!! Trying to work my way to master archer =)
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Friday, November 22, 2013
I Give Up On Explanations - No One Believes Anyways
Welp, today while I was at the restaurant for my little brother's 5th birthday. Since I didn't really have anything to do, I was looking on to Denne's phone as he read through facebook. I saw Anne's post saying something about, "the world doesn't revolve around you." Since shes said that a few times about her bf, I thought something was up, so I went onto her blog. When I went onto her blog, I was like "ok?" because I only saw something about how her boyfriend has changed (in a good way). I read through it anyways since there wasn't really anything else to do. Afterwards, I messaged her on facebook to see if she was ok and needed someone to talk to. She didn't reply, so I just thought, "Oh well, she can handle her own I guess?"
It took me maybe 20 ish minutes of total boredom to realize something. I just remembered about the blog I posted yesterday about my style and how a certain LG or two kept glaring me down after copying my hair. I kinda got glared at again by the same chick that day, and I was like, "Fuck this shit" and blogged it to vent. I looked at her blog again, and she had parts where she changed the colour of her font. I blogged about the way I blog when it came to quotations and colour changes.
That moment, I was like,
"fuck isn't this great. =="
But then I honestly didn't give a shit about explaining myself. I didn't see a point in explaining myself when there was no point in it. Even if I told her that it was a coincidence and I just happened to use that blog format thing as n example since its fucking hard to offend people with it when I only know 3 or so people that blog. But I guess not, YAY.
I kinda give up on maintaining relationships and friendships. I accept everything about my friends because they are my friend. I ignore their bad habits and the shit that they do because in my opinion, that is what makes them them. If I think of it as a big enough issue, I'd talk to them about it. If they have legitimate reasons, then I'd accept that and they can do whatever the fuck they want, taking whatever protocols they want. It's their life after all. All I actually do is give people options/opinions. But oh well, this world doesn't roll that way.
I'm slowly entering that state again where I have no real need for friends. I become numb to the shit around me and carry on with life as it is. Why try to change something that doesn't want to change. Why try and fix something that obviously can't be repaired. I've only lived about a fifth of my life, its not like I won't ever find "friends" again.
Welp, looks like henrii is starting shit up again.
Seriously shut the fuck up. You think bitches copying you? Why don't you stop being such a bitch and keep your little mouth shut. Why the fuck would you complain and rant about people copying your blog? ITS A FUCKING BLOG. Bitch. Yeah you know who this is for."
Awh honey, you're not a slut. I mean, you sure act like one, talk like one and brags a lot like one but hey, not a slut at all.
Thanks, Hence why I don't even try. The word "friends" have absolutely no meaning.
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Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Christmas Present - Denne GTFO
As said in the title, This post will contain my plans for Denne's Christmas present... so if you're Denne and you've opened this post... GTFO =) We made a promise and you better not break it you faggot ( <.> I love you). Anywho, if you happen to know Denne, please don't show him this post, or images from this post, because I've put in a considerable amount of time with the easiest stage of this project.
Now, time for a song.
Tonight by John Legend
"Baby, tonight's the night I let you know
Baby, tonight's the night we lose control
Baby, tonight you need that, tonight believe that
Tonight I'll be the best you ever had
I don't wanna brag, but I'll be
The best you ever had"
Now, back to the main thing =) Well, for Christmas I'm planning to get Denne one of those "sexy Santa" costumes you see from animes. I know he loves anime, I know he LOVES costumes and he loves... yeah =3 you know. And well, all of my presents that I give to my significant other (for such occasions) are all handmade. I wouldn't want to break that now since I already made Denne a teddy bear, hence...
I'M MAKING IT FROM SCRATCH
*Dahnn dahhnn dahhhnnnnnnnnn*
I've already started the first step, getting my designs down on paper... welp, here it is:
I'm bottom 1 although is gonna be a tad bit of a challenge.
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Tears of Happiness
On monday, we were in his bed watching some Sword Art Online. We happened to be watching episode 10 if I'm not mistaken, when he turns around and faced me. As he looked into my eyes, he said,
"Lets get married someday."
I couldn't help but be so incredibly happy when he said that. I cracked the biggest smile and (like those cliche anime scenes) tears started collecting in my tear ducts. I didn't think he'd ever say something like that. To think that he thought that far when it comes to our relationship hahas.
"So stay with me until that day ok?
If anything happens between us, promise to stay and work things out"
"Hai, as long as you're faithful,
I would always be willing to make ends meet"
Well, from there I started to cry. Its been a while since I happy cried, but he truly makes me happy.
I love him dearly.
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I Hope His Friends Aren't Saying Things
Honestly, I really admire my boyfriend. Hes always working so hard to make money to support himself me and his family. Its insane to think that he wakes up at 5.am in the morning to get ready for work. Honestly, if I had to wake up at 5 every single morning to work a 8-9 hour shift, fuck I would be miserable after a week or two. He is always completely exhausted after he finishes work, yet he still smiles and spends time with me. Lately he been more worn out then usual, so we tend to just chil at his house or my house, doing nothing but lay in bed and watch anime, or nap. Work occupies so much of his time, and exhausts even more of his energy that he just wants to chill.
Lately, he hasn't been spending time with his friends, and it really worries me. I'm honestly envious of him for having such a tight group of friends, although I do question them sometimes when I hear the things they say behind one another's backs. To be frank, I always try to convince myself that its normal for people to do so, but I seem to have a tendency to always rid my life of such people. Anywho, back on track, I understand that he is the type of person who is not hesitant to bluntly prioritize things in a way that he seems fit. In his eyes, I am undoubtedly the most important aspect if his life. I'm really grateful for that. For the past month, hes given me nothing but the utmost support as I finish my exams. He dedicated the whole month into making sure that I was ok. Its amazing that he came to understand all my anxieties and insecurities in such a short amount of time. Without questioning or looking down on me, he accepted me for who I am, whether good or bad, weak or strong, and gave me all the support I needed without thinking about himself. He has been so selfless in the last month that thinking about it really makes me feel so damn lucky.
I know he hasn't been in contact with his friend much lately, but now that I finished school, I hope I can make things easier for him. Since my worries are over and done with, I can now cater to him better. I can make sure that he has enough nutrients to make it through the day without becoming a deflated floaty lol, Although I'm only making wraps this week, I intend to work on my bentos, so I can make him a bento for smoko everyday. He can now spend more time with his friends, rather than worrying about me and my welbehing. Denne is so gentle and kind, but I honestly don't know if anyone knows that.
I just hope that his "friends" or some people that he hangs with aren't saying the typical things like, "Hes ditching his friends just because he has a girlfriend," or, "He thinks he is better than us just because he has a girlfriend now." Hope people aren't completely closed minded and judgmental. I've had my fair share of such experiences and I hope he does not have to go through it too. Good and true friends these days aren't so easy to come across.
Anywho Denne, a cute owl gif to start your day, since I know you like cute animals =3
Jesus fuck... those eyes... He looks so incredibly happy Q^Q
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